I've definitely noticed my hunger increase. Having a Jell-O cup or two just doesn't cut it anymore. Thank God I move to mushy foods in three days. I already have in mind what I want. A "Wendy's Chili". Mmm Mmm, Good!
I wanted to talk a little about negativity from friends. I don't think they intend to be negative with their comments or questions, but they certainly come across that way. Tonight I had an online chat with someone who had also thought about having this surgery.
Friend: so how do they tighten and untighten the ring
Me: there's a port just under the muscle of my stomach
and they just inject saline into it
Friend: and how long will you keep this in?It felt as though I was being called a "failure" because I decided to have surgery instead of trying to lose the weight on my own. It also seems as if I should be mourning the food that I will no longer be able to eat. It's amazing how others act like you've never considered these things. Will I miss eating popcorn? Pizza with all the crust? Thanksgiving dinner and eating until I can't move? Yeah.. a little.. but not NEARLY as much as I'll miss wearing a smaller pair of pants, not having to take this blood pressure medicine, and a lack of a high level of self-confidence that I'll lose if I did continue to eat all of those things and thing some.
Me: for liiiiiiiiife
you remove it and you go back to your old ways
and gain all the weight back
Friend: not if you learn why you turn to food and switch to a healthier lifestyle
Me: um.. it's recommended that you don't remove it
it CAN be removed but if it's helping you to keep the weight off, why do you want to have it removed? So I can eat a whole plate of food?
Friend: i get it now. you have no control. you've tried but without this you won't be able to control what you eat
Me: that's why people get gastric surgeries, right?
Just something that caused me to pause and consider the intention behind the words.